Pangs of parting

There are times in life when you miss someone. You feel a void just because someone is missing. Someone you dearly loved.

Well, something of that sort has been going in my life for sometime now.

I cant believe that my best friend left for US. I hate US now by the way. Though I hadnt met her for almost 10 months yet her going feels like a betrayal. I am happy for her coz she had dreamt about this for as long as I have known her. But the selfish part of me is mad at her. I know that its good for her, I know she would do well but am still desperately sad. I continue to talk to her online thanks to the connected world we stay in yet it doesnt feel the same. The fact that I cant talk to her all the time, the fact that we cant share every stupid problem and detail bothers me. I miss her desperately. More desperately than she or I could ever imagine. I look at all the pics of us together doing mad things, cracking silly jokes, fighting over silly things and I realize that I dont know when we ll meet again or will we ever meet? Will we be like friends who drift apart and when they meet coincidently they cant remember what they shared? Will it be the case that we wont be able to recognize the new each other? Will I find new friends and forget about her? Or will she be the one who would get so set in her new life that she wont recognize me? The possibility that things would ever be the same again is almost zilch.

But am I ready to move on or would I be able to move on is the question I ask....

"She went her unremembering way,

She went and left in me

The pang of all the partings gone,

The parting yet to be."